Looking Forward

To start off I want to say that I didn't take these pictures myself, because I have never been to this country, but have always wanted to. It is a place that just seems to call to my soul, somewhere I knew I would never be satisfied without visiting, Italy. There are many countries I want to visit, in fact ideally I would be able to go everywhere, see everything, but for the past few years I didn't believe I would ever be able to do that. I have been struggling with 'things' which have meant that it is difficult to picture myself walking through town, let alone flying to another country; however, last night my mother told me that next year my uncle will be getting married in Italy. I am so excited and so want to be able to go, but another part of me thinks, what if I can't do it, what if my anxiety gets the better of me, again?

The problem with illnesses of the mind is that there isn't a straightforward treatment like there would be for the body, it's not like getting a cast on a broken leg, for a lot of people they can hide them, no one even knows they have it. For me, nothing feels better than hoping, hoping that one day you will be able to do what you so desperately want to do; for me, it's travelling.

Now, let's talk about the specific allure of Italy! I absolutely cannot wait to stuff my face with every single dish from every restaurant that I come across. You're probably thinking that's an exaggeration for comic effect, oh no my friend, I mean it. Pasta has always been my numero uno (see what I did there) in terms of food groups, and that, combined with my adoration of all things edible,  is a very dangerous prospect. Let's scoot away from the buffet for a moment and talk about the actual country, ever since I was little I have loved being outdoors, in fact my family used to refer to me as 'monkey baby' because of my penchant for climbing (I've been assured this was meant affectionately). I can't wait to just walk around, visit local cafe's, walk on the beaches, climb the mountains, nothing is safe when I'm around.

I suppose what I'm trying to say with this post is that you have to keep looking forward, because the future is only so far away, you can't delay it or stop it from coming, but you can do everything possible to make it the type of future you want. The sun will keep shining, the sky will still be blue, and the moon will still glow in the sky no matter what we're doing, no matter who leaves the world or who comes into it and still we remain, and I know that I will be able to make it to Italy,  and I am intending to eat, drink and be merry!

Gabrielle